This past full moon and eclipse had a powerful effect on me and I know I’m not the only one. With the lunar shift into Libra, the sign of balance, and a particularly powerful eclipse it’s the perfect time to reset old patterns and emotions. During this shift, light illuminates the shadows of our souls revealing old wounds of the heart that have been affecting our relationship to ourselves and others. In order to heal we need love and acceptance for all things light and dark. Without the ability to face and accept our own inner shadows we allow them to take control. It was through this full moon that I realized I needed to revise my relationship with alcohol in order to find balance within its use.
The emotional and mental aspects of giving up alcohol are something I’ve needed for a while now. Past traumas have stayed with me for far too long and I’m well aware I’ve been using alcohol to cope with the anxiety left behind by it all. I haven’t given myself time to heal, I’ve just been masking it. These wounds have been surfacing a lot lately due to Chiron (The Wounded Healer) and Ceres (The Great Mother) in conjunction to the pisces south node, the sign of denial, avoidance of reality and deception of self. This powerful conjunction can bring forth the feelings stored in the deepest parts of yourself, the ones that have been wreaking havoc on your wellbeing.
This isn’t to say I’ll never drink again, but I’m hoping to give my body and mind a break from the toxins and learn how to relax without needing a glass of wine. I’m taking this time to better understand myself and what my mind needs to unwind rather than using alcohol as a quick fix as I so often do. I’m also hoping to heal my digestive system that has been run amuck from two years full of surgery, stitches, and way too many powerful antibiotics. Alcohol only makes stomach inflammation and bloating worse, so here’s to ridding myself of the unnecessary irritant for a while.
After these 30 days I want to look at alcohol as a way to celebrate rather than using it as a way to cope with my anxiety. I want to know myself better than I can when alcohol is frequently in my life and gain a sense of clarity. Taking a break from masking my feelings and learning to find my own inner balance will only benefit me, the ever-powerful moon has made that very clear.
If you’ve been coping with the past, dealing with anxiety, or masking your emotions through the use of alcohol, I invite you to take 30 days without in order to gain insight and inner strength. If you want to join me I’ll be posting a few updates throughout and I would love to discuss the physical, mental and spiritual benefits that come along the way, as well as providing support for one another. Love + Light.